you see, its like this. theres a difference between what i say i want and what i actually want. but in reality, there really is no difference since i lie on both accounts, to you and to myself. i communicate from many different parts, i speak from my brain, i think from my mind and my heart, i act from the pit of my stomach, i lie from my face, to my face. i move for my knowledge, to know that i am still able-bodied.
many months ago i took a test, an online test, to see where i stood in the grand scheme of things. there were two questions to which i had answered no. and i was then labeled moderate and given some type of warning. but now both of those have shifted to yes. so where does that place me? is it official now, like can i give myself that label. instead of finding other excuses or creating alternate names.
things change. and i dont like it. and you should know this. and you should do something about it. or at least you shouldnt do that one thing that you know really just drives me insane. or maybe you continue to do it because you dont know. in fact, im sure you dont know. because i always lie to you. so how could you know? and how can i let myself get upset for something that you do to irritate me that you have no idea irritates me because i never tell you it irritates me, and that cycle irritates me...you understand?
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